About Me

About me

I am one of the worst dancers in the world but rest assured I can be found in the center of the dance floor at every party. I guess this is the best way to describe myself. I live my life without concern for what other people think about me or have to say. The world tries to rob people of their joy and that is something that I have never let happen to me. I try to see the best in everybody and everything regardless of what goes on. Life is too short to be worried about all of the details that cannot be changed.

I used to be a big believer in the concept that the grass is always greener on the other side but never the concept of how it got that way. Over the past year, I have willed that I was going to have to make my own grass greener. I have lost 30 pounds and began seeking regular therapy to deal with all of the emotions going on in my head. This has been so freeing for me. If anyone tells a person they do not need therapy or it is all in their heads, they need to change their thinking. I have had some ups and downs through my childhood and wanting to make sense of that is completely normal.

On top of that I have entered into a romantic relationship that has both challenged and rewarded me in the most amazing ways. He has inspired me to be to be a better me and makes me laugh so hard I almost pee myself. I am planning on making him a part of my future permanently someday, which is both fantastic and terrifying all at the same time. I have the typical divorced kid’s mindset that every relationship I get into is doomed to fail. Thankfully he puts up with every doubt and fear that I have ever had. I learned that I am worth loving and I deserve everything he gives me. As cheesy as it sounds, I have met my soulmate and he has become such a huge part of who I am and who I want to be.

In attending my current University, I had tried two previous ones prior. I was so certain that I was going to go away from home and have everything figured out. After throwing my anatomy book at a wall and praying I would never have to name a bone again, I knew I was wrong. I am a communications major now and I moved home to try and gain some control back over my life. For anyone who thinks it is too late to start over or they don’t have it all figured out, relax. Every day I am still learning more and deciding on the woman that I want to be. Sure, I still am far from figuring it all out. But I wake up every morning with a goal to be a little better than I was yesterday and that is a great place to start.